Do Bees and Trees Worry?!?

As I sit today and stare out my office window…I am consumed with worry. My left eye keeps jumping (which thanks to my TL i have learned its due to stress or low potassium #gottalovetwitterandinstantanswers.) It seems as if in my short 25 years on this earth I have spent the majority of that time worrying. I have always worried in regards to making the right decision or if “he loves me,” or the biggest thing, “How am I gonna pay for _______?(insert ANYTHING here). Day in and day I out I am sure I waste so many hours worrying whether or not I did the right thing.  Did I save that child by removing them from that family? Did I do the right thing by leaving  Joel and that GREAT job in Biloxi?  Should I move?  Will we last? Will my Daddy be okay? I have answers to most if not all of the questions I have just listed, but are they right? 

Then, as I stared out into the parking lot and noticed the trees turning into their fall colors I love so much I wondered, “Do bees and Trees Worry?” Do animals stress about what they will feed their fawn….cubs…pups? When there’s a drought do the crops have panic attacks…like SO many of us do? Or what about the grass or the apples before being plucked off of trees? It occurred to me that….most of these species don’t waste an ounce of energy on things they cannot change….so why do we?

So, during my ponder session (I am pondering SO MANY things right now) I realized that all of the worry is a trigger for me. I sat and thought how can I remedy this….and my mind went straight to God. So, I googled the word Worry….and the first thing to pop up is the scripture

“Matthew 6:31-33

Do not worry then, saying, “What will we eat?” or “What will we drink?”‘ or “What will we wear for clothing?” For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”

Reading this brought immediate comfort….I mean *snaps* just like that. I realized that God knows my heart and its desires (though there aren’t many). He also knows that I am doing the best that I can!!! (whatever that is)…but the thing is I KNOW that I can always do better. I don’t want to be a worry wart!!! I don’t want to dwell on things that ultimately I cannot change. I don’t want to spend my remaining years contemplating over and over if I did the “right” thing. Ultimately…I can rest knowing that I am doing the best that I can. I am the type of person to operate on gut feelings…and I am learning to not question it. I know that because I have been through a lot…that I can see things more in depth than others…and I can just FEEL things. Back then I operated on fear….and now I am operating on faith. Day in and Day out…my faith increases…and hopefully one of these days my worry will decrease. Just now it has decreased…and I am charging myself to work on it. Now….my main goal is to follow my heart…when you lead with your heart…your soul…you can never go wrong. I can remember in the past that I was mostly following what others thought…or how I would make my decisions based on what others feel…or want. And I am sure back then I had no idea the difference between my heart….and my soul (there’s a difference…but that’s a blog for another day).

I leave you guys with this scripture…

Luke 12:22-29
And He said to His disciples, “For this reason I say to you, do not worry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing? Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds! And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life’s span? If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You men of little faith! And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying.

*Sends Lovely hugs*